Sometimes the answer to a question is really a question to a question.

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i feel like posting something... but i dunno what. give me ideas people.............

Know what's funny? The only actual reason that Daniela gave that she didn't want to be with me is because we're good friends and she didn't want to ruin our friendship... oh the irony!

ok honestly, why do people end their sentences with yo? That's the dumbest thing ever. Yo is a word that's supposed to get people's attention, like "hey", so therefore it should start a sentence, not finish it! It's like saying "listen to this". Wouldn't it be dumb if someone said a whole sentence and then finished it with, "listen to what I just said". pff.

Why does nobody ever start their prayers with "Dude"? Wouldn't it be better if we were like "Dude, God, hey, guess what... etc." I think that a lot of people think of God as this great King that you have to have the utmost respect for, and I'd have to say I agree, but is it disrespectful to be open with God and talk to him like a friend? God wants to be your Lord and King, but I've also learned that he wants to be your friend. Whenever I hear someone praying a prayer, like, like one of those ones that have already been written, I just think, "Do they really mean that prayer?" I have a feeling that most of the time they don't, like for example take my grandpa. I have a lot of respect for him, but every meal he says the exact same prayer:

When was the last time you spoke like that to your friend? I just think that God would prefer if you spoke to Him openly. If you're one of those very weird people that end every sentance with "yo", then pray like that!

I've been playing around with the look of the website. I got this idea from this site. It looks pretty slick, eh?

yep... it's today.

I feel like I lost one of my best friends today... Man what a crap. How did this happen? I'd say I'm confused, but... I dunno, I'm more just upset. Ok, let me tell you. I had two reasons for coming to Costa Rica last January. The first is my dad. I wanted to come to I guess evangelize him. He needs to know Jesus. I wanted to help him become saved. So far, after being here for a year and 2 months, I have hardly said anything at all to him. I dunno, it's hard. It's not even that I don't have a lot of experience with evangelism (which I don't really), but it's stupid. I just can't talk to him about it. I told him that he should go to this evangelistic festival the other day (oh man, i should post about that too) and he said that he didn't want to go, but maybe he would go to church some day. At least that's positive, but I think I need to find an English-speaking church around here because I'm sure he wouldn't understand anything at my church.

Anyway, that's the first reason I came here. The second is because of my friend Daniela. I haven't had a girlfriend for a long time and it's something that I've been praying about for almost just as long. And well, God told me that Daniela would be the one for me a long time ago. Actually it started almost 2 years ago. And, so I decided to come to Costa Rica after I finished university for these two reasons. Since I came here, I've been nothing but shy around Daniela. I just haven't been able to open up to her at all. Then around last April or May, I decided that I would just go straight out and tell her how I felt, except it just didn't come out that well due to my shyness. And I dunno, I think since then she just sorta tried to ignore it until around December when people around church started talking about us because we were close friends and we were always together. And that made her start to feel awkward because we were just friends. I guess she's the type of person that really cares what people think about her, or at least she doesn't like when people gossip. Anyway, the whole time I still had the same feelings for her because I just felt like I didn't have closure. I always felt like maybe if I would just open up to her that she would begin to change, or maybe see the possibility of something happening. I wasn't sure, but I just felt like when I didn't do a good job earlier that year that I just needed to be honest with her. Then in December, God revealed to me exactly what I needed to do and when I needed to do it, but me, being shy, decided not to do it. Lo and behold, two weeks later she has a boyfriend.

Well, her relationship didn't last long with him. I think it was like just over a month or something. Then after they broke up, I decided that I couldn't be shy anymore around her. So I decided to tell her exactly how I felt about her, and I did. I told her everything that happened right from the beginning, and I know that she doesn't have any feelings for me, but I just told her to pray about it, because maybe God might tell her that I was the one for her, even though she didn't think so. So yesterday after church, I saw Daniela and some friends of mine and I were going to go get something to eat for lunch, so I thought it would be cool if Daniela came with us too. So I went with her while she talked with her friends to try to see where they wanted to go. Since it was like 4 women, they were pretty indecisive and they ended up wanting to go to a different place than they had originally planned, at which point, my friends had already taken off to go to get something to eat somewhere else. So since I didn't have anywhere else to go, I decided to go along with them to KFC. Well, her ex-boyfriend went with us too and it was about that time that I noticed that they didn't seem to be ex's anymore. They were like holding hands and stuff. I felt a bit awkward, as I think she did too. So anyway I was in my room today and I lied down on my bed to call her and just then the phone rang and it was her. So she told me that they were back together as of like a week ago and that she didn't think that God would change how she feels for me, even if she prayed about it. I'm assuming that means that she didn't pray about it. Anyway, she told me that her boyfriend also asked about me because we were good friends, and so she told him and now he knows that I have feelings for her. So for that reason, now she doesn't think it would be right if we were to hang out at all or go to the movies or anything because her boyfriend would get jealous. I understand how she feels, but still, it just sucks. Now I feel really bad about it. I just wish there was something I could do to make everything better. I know I could pray about it, but still. I'm just not optimistic right now. I feel like I've lost one of my best friends and I won't be able to get her back.

...the nose knows...

So yesterday I was in church (actually it's now the day before yesterday since it's after 12), and there's been this thing that I have really been praying about lately, and God revealed the plan to me in a very strange way. It was in a drawing on the cover of this notebook that someone on the bench in front of me had, but holey, it was a clear plan of action. Yesterday was a very awesome day. I had to do this presentation for the Academia de Obreros, which was like a final exam. And the thing was that you had to use whatever talent that God has given you, no matter what area it is in, and show it to the class. So, well, I chose to play guitar in front of everyone. I thought it would be cool that I would do it with this other guy, but, well... we practiced it for like 2 1/2 hours and he still managed to screw the rhythm up while we were doing it... sorta reminds me of BAHB during the birth of BOB! hahahah! But yeah, it was kewl and I did another song besides this one. It was a non-Christian song, but it had a really kewl message that was sorta like a metaphor to a Christian concept (even if the person who wrote it didn't intend for it to be that way [which I don't think he did]).

Ok, I must commence my plan of action for today. bye bye

i will SPLODE you!